A Cruel Love The Ruth Ellis Story review

 

when i was about 7, someone gave me a very graphic book about various historical crimes & ruth ellis was one of the stories in it. it absolutely wasnt an appropriate book to give to a child. basically they said she killed david blakely because she was a stupid slut with a gun. they didnt explain how her dad raped her & her sister or how her husband used to beat her or how david punched her in the stomach & how that lead to her losing their baby 2 weeks before she killed david blakely.

i was reading an article about this new show A Cruel Love : The Ruth Ellis Story &, of course, all the comments are from men glad she was hanged & basically calling her a stupid slut with a gun(it did include her miscarriage but in their minds she deserved that). 70 years later & men are still just as cruel. all the men in her life let her down over & over & to actually see it is triggering. her life meant nothing to them so his meant nothing to her.

i didnt want to watch it because i know what she went through way too well. the acting is good & the wardrobe is cute. i guess the worst part for me is how her son andre saw desmond cussen give her the gun, teach her how to shoot it, & once he was grown he ended up hating her just as much as the rest. andre ended up desecrating her grave before killing himself. he couldve taken that anger to help other women in her situation but instead acted like a typical male...........

Game of Thrones - Season 1 review

 so ive never seen game of thrones & i want to watch house of the dragon but i feel like i need to see thrones first so here we go.

not even 20 minutes in & so many sh!tty weaves. im so tired of hollywood refusing to hire black hairstylists(,makeup artists,actresses, directors, writers,etc). these $10 wigs are making me feel some sort of way.

not even through with the 1st episode & all this "sensuality" is grossing me out.i know it gets worse but geez. it tries so hard to be shocking but its only very,very gross. its obvious the only writers were white males.

not baby arya beating everybodys azz.she is already my favorite,everybody else is lame af.

ep6: this show is very stupid

a lot of these actors cant act.i keep falling asleep (which is rare)but i feel like it doesnt even matter. like im not missing anything. im confused why this was so popular.

eta after watching season 3: im guessing there are 50/11 characters so they can just get killed throughout the season. the stark mom getting killed really bummed me out,i liked her. the acting/writing is still very bad but at least they are buying $50 wigs instead of $10 ones

various "thoughts"

gladiator 2 was a cheap,boring mess & really not worth talking about.

so many movies are disappointing these days. you'd think since white men are in charge & so much smarter than everybody else that they wouldnt make such shitty movies/tv shows.

i see males being even more violent than usual & everybody pretending like we dont know what the problem is. good job, dummies!

i guess it all keeps coming back to ancient rome & their bread + circuses. good thing americans are anti intellectual & have no idea what happened in history(or even 20 years ago).

someone tried to insinuate that i am addicted to drugs but i am only addicted to beautiful clothing.

white supremacy is a death cult.

there will be A LOT of famous people dying this year. no,i will not elaborate :-)

timestalker 2024 movie review

 it hasnt even been 5 minutes of me watching & timestalker is one of the best movies ive seen in years. i dont know who tf alice lowe is(though ive seen her in bandersnatch & garth marenghi)& i dont know whats going on but i love it.

"save me from my empty existence". this is hitting a little too close to home. its very telling how the only positive relationship she has is with her female friend. tanya reynolds is very talented, i enjoy seeing her work. this movie isnt perfect but its funny af & the truth it tells will go over a lot of heads.

the rockstar who rapes

i was auditioning an old white male to be my husband. he was about 60 & very rich, i will call him lou. we were talking & he says, "oh i see you know the rockstar ashley?" & i say yes. lou asks "you know ashley is a rapist?" & i say "yes, everybody knows ashley rapes & yes i believe his victims".

lou says, "i left ashley alone with my ex girlfriend & he raped her". i said that was horrible. now at this point a normal person wouldve changed the subject but, of course, lou had to explain to me in great detail what happened to his ex. i change the subject. lou changes it back to the rape. 

every

single

time

i can tell he's getting worked up & i'm getting the feeling that he left her alone in his mansion with ashley on purpose. when the "conversation" is over, i block lou. the worst part is that this is normal. i always warn women not to talk about past abuse because males will never be empathetic, it will just be something else for him to masturbate to. men dont care. if men cared, rape would not still be a thing.

jack the ripper

 

ive been obsessed with jack the ripper since i was a child. many millions of years ago,i made my 1st trip to london & (of course) went on a jack the ripper tour. it upset me greatly how the tour guide was so fixated on the prurient, he was so disrespectful, & kept saying the victims were prostitutes & somehow deserved it because they were prostitutes.

the thing is, though most of the victims werent prostitutes, just homeless. he was able to kill them so quietly because they were asleep on the sidewalk (not because he was otherworldly or the best serial killer ever). their only sin was being poor & born a woman.

"history is written by the victors"

i see it all the time in the way women/black people are written about yet not one negative word is said about males or white people(funny how that works). anyway, i had a point to make but im tired & in the grand scheme of things it does not matter. "the five" is a great book about the jack the ripper victims & tells the true story of their short lives.

Beetlejuice Beetlejuice 2 movie review

 

Beetlejuice is one of my favorite movies & yes ive been waiting impatiently this entire time for the sequel. tim burton has been showing his ass lately about being anti black & hasnt had a good movie since edward scissorhands but i will ignore that for a second because i need my keaton/Beetlejuice fix.

i leave early & get there an hour late. i use 2 phones to take pictures & absolutely none of the pictures were actually taken. i was very close to just going back home & the vibes were severely off.

Beetlejuice 2 was ok. was it worth the wait? no. was it bad? not really. would i watch it again? probably not

all of the new characters were a waste of time except monica bellucci. i am a huge willem dafoe fan & he added absolutely nothing to this movie. im glad to see burn gorman is still booked & busy,tim burton should use him more often. justin therouxs lacefront wig was so bad & you could see the lace crinkling from the glue. i wonder if that was his personal toupee or if a "professional" installed it. there is no reason in the world why im still seeing gluey goopy lacefronts in 2024. 

i dont like how they made fake charles a recurring character. he wasnt needed at all,just have the funeral & get on with the movie.

i was expecting new exquisite goth lewks but all they gave was kmart chic & middle aged lydia in a recreation of her schoolgirl outfit. it wouldve made more sense to have astrid in the school uniform since they INSISTED on calling back to that. delia in her crone era wouldve been even more weird but they gave her no lewks, either.i see they are already trying to make astrids marie curie halloween costume a thing but it wasnt even cute or accurate. the only actual lewk(besides lydias ripoff elvira gown) was beetlejuices iconic striped suit(which wasnt even updated).

even with the internet no teens are going to know what james deans "rebel without a cause" outfit looks like(nor would a teen from the 1990s). these dummies think bonnie & clyde were fictional(yes, really) so im doubtful they would even know who james dean was(they know james deen but not dean kthanxbye).

i feel like the "soul train" part was tim burton being petty because 40 years later white people finally realized he never casts black people. so he decided to do so but only have them dancing & wearing afro wigs(because of course). im actually surprised he didnt shoe horn in some tap dancing, watermelon eating, & a couple of raccoons for a little razzle dazzle.

"debby"

 

i went to a party & ran into my agent with his new client, an older white actress i will call debby. debby had been in most of my favorite childhood films & i was excited to meet her. i did nothing offensive & as soon as our agent walked away she decided to be as racist & as rude as possible.

a year goes by & i hear that debbys savings were stolen by scammers & she was almost homeless. the best part was that i knew those scammers. they were very hot gay men who stole from women/men who wanted to be their sugarmamas. debby had always been unattractive & usually played the ugly friend. she was at least old enough to be their grandma but in typical white woman fashion she thought these young gay males actually wanted her. if i had been her friend, i couldve warned her against hanging out with the scammers but she thought being racist was more important than making a new friend that day..........

boys will be boys or #ripamie

 

every time i open tinder i see his profile first so i know he's already swiped right on me. gareth is technically good looking but not my type.his eyes are dark & blank like a shark.i keep swiping left on him,i can do better. after about a year i am bored & decide to give him a chance. i swipe right. we talk. he is trying VERY hard to be quirky & fun & its like talking to a robot pretending to be human. our conversation tapers out when he begins to stalk his ex girlfriend again. she contacts the cops & despite her having multiple restraining orders against him, they ignore her. boys will be boys. he tries to woo me online, then the next day gareth pursehouse throws amie harwick off a balcony & kills her.

i am sharing this story because women are always told to ignore our intuition, lower our standards, & give these "good guys" a chance. i wish i could say this was the only time a man who killed a woman he claimed to love then tried to date me but this isnt even my most interesting story. 

various musings from the former muse

 

i was so excited when i heard that i had been cast in the last movie i worked on. that was a while ago & i still have not seen that movie. it seems like a lot of my life is like that, i get excited then absolutely nothing happens.

my favorite holiday is halloween/my birthday but i havent celebrated it in years. maybe this year? probably not but dreams are free.

i always forget i have "fans" & that i was on tv & thats why strangers think they know me.

6 degrees of separation is so real here in hollywood. so many former friends who are connected & they dont see but i see.i am the missing puzzle piece that brings it all together & only i know where the bodies are buried.

i stopped having dreams years ago when i started taking sleeping pills. my dreams have come back recently but its only the same dream over & over. i am dead,i have died, but no one knows,not even me. i get up & work, i eat, my schedule is the same but i am dead. im sure a therapist would have a lot to say about that

a complete stranger came up to me & said he liked that i was natural & didnt have plastic surgery. natural is a word that i would NEVER use to describe myself so that was weird & unsettling.....